waltz me into oblivion

That laughter that made us fall off the couch couldn’t be the sanctuary I believed in as the shelter we built crumbled in your hands

You promised me an empire

who knew you’d destroy —

not with bows and arrows like majestic Troy,

but by breaking our oath

turning back on your dream-like confession

and turning into my most feared ghost.

but I bet I made you question

how you could gain access to the heavens and the world through the actions of a silly girl

I, adhering to the politics of caring, gave more of myself than what I could offer without once regretting it

And I’ll admit loving you was addicting and I still find myself reminiscing even through mumbled ‘I hate yous’

and a string of more strangers posing as benefactors.

Pleasure never felt so painful,

and when you erased me from your life

after I prayed you’d always be mine

How could I be grateful?